From Shame to Alignment: Finding My Way Back to Reiki
- ingaj68
- Jun 6
- 5 min read
For a long time, I carried a quiet shame.
Over a decade ago, I followed a path that, at the time, felt right. I was introduced to Reiki—this beautiful, subtle healing energy—and completed my Level 1 attunement. But something didn’t sit right. The training didn’t resonate with me on a deeper level. The teacher’s energy, the method, the feeling—it all left me confused, unsure, and eventually disconnected from Reiki altogether.
I abandoned the practice. Not just because of doubt, but because I felt ashamed. Ashamed that I might have chosen the wrong path. That I had misunderstood something sacred. That I wasn’t “spiritual enough” or “in tune enough.” I buried that part of my journey, quietly distancing myself from something I once felt curious about.
For nearly ten years, Reiki remained a closed door.
But the truth is: sometimes we have to take a wrong turn to discover the right one. Sometimes we’re guided to teachers or paths that don’t align—not because we failed, but because we’re being redirected.
Recently, something shifted.
As a yoga teacher and Ayurveda practitioner, I’ve deepened my commitment to a lifestyle of integrity, balance, and authenticity. In that space of trust and openness, Reiki found me again—this time, through an Indian Reiki school rooted in the very philosophy and traditions I live by. It felt like coming home.
Reflecting on my own journey, I began to understand why so many people — myself included — drift away after their Level 1 or even Level 2 attunement. It’s not because Reiki “didn’t work.” It’s often because we weren't supported to integrate it into real life.
I’ve found it usually comes down to:
Feeling uncertain or not “good enough” to practice
Lack of community or ongoing connection
Emotional overwhelm after the attunement
Life getting busy, and Reiki becoming a forgotten “someday” thing
Reiki isn’t just a technique — it’s a practice of remembering, returning, and restoring connection to ourselves. Now I’m passionate about helping others gently reconnect with Reiki, not as a duty, but as a quiet support that’s always there.
Finding Reiki Again — This Time, as Self-Care
I’ve come back to Reiki again and again over the years. But this time, it’s different.
I used to see Reiki as another therapy I offered to others — another tool in my practitioner’s kit. But what I’ve come to realize is that Reiki was never meant to be something separate - it’s not just something I do for others… it’s something I live with, for myself.
Now, I’m rediscovering Reiki as a quiet, sacred self-care practice and a way to return to myself, a way to soften, a way to reconnect sometimes a way to heal.....
It’s not about being perfect, or always “in the flow.” It’s about remembering that this nurturing energy is already within me — I just have to pause and receive it.
From now on i see Reiki not as a duty or performance, but as a gentle companion in my everyday live.
This may explain why some people abandon Reiki after the first treatment or attunement:
1. Lack of Ongoing Support or Mentoring
After the attunement, many people are left without follow-up guidance.
Reiki can stir up deep emotional or energetic shifts; without a teacher or peer group to talk to, this can feel confusing or even overwhelming.
There’s often no structured path after Level 1, leaving students unsure how to integrate Reiki into daily life.
2.Energetic Detox and Emotional Reactions
Post-attunement, people may experience a "21-day cleansing period", which can bring up emotional turbulence, physical discomfort, or unresolved trauma.
Without preparation or proper explanation, these symptoms are misinterpreted as something “wrong” with Reiki or the self.
3.Expectations vs. Reality
Some people expect dramatic or mystical experiences immediately (e.g., seeing auras, instant healing).
When this doesn't happen, they assume "Reiki isn't working" or that they’re "not gifted enough," which leads to disillusionment.
4.Not Enough Embodiment or Self-Practice
Reiki Level 1 is about self-healing, but some students skip or undervalue this aspect.
Without regular self-practice, the energy doesn’t fully integrate, and people don’t get to experience its benefits deeply.
Reiki is subtle; its power builds with consistent, mindful use.
5. Poor Teaching or Misalignment with Teacher
If the Reiki teacher wasn’t grounded, compassionate, or thorough, the experience can feel superficial or transactional.
Some Reiki classes are rushed or overly commercial, with little emphasis on traditional spiritual or meditative roots.
6. Spiritual Bypassing or New Age Confusion
Some people are drawn to Reiki as a "quick fix" or trend, without understanding that it is a spiritual practice requiring patience, discipline, and inner work.
When results aren’t immediate or when deeper healing emerges, they back away because it requires more than they expected.
7. Unintegrated Trauma
Reiki can bring awareness to suppressed emotions or trauma.
If someone has unresolved trauma and no support system (therapist, healer, grounded teacher), the practice might feel destabilizing or scary.
8. Lack of Confidence
Many students feel unsure about “doing it right,” especially if they don’t feel energy strongly.
Doubts creep in, and without validation or guidance, they abandon the practice.
This experience reminded me:
✨ It’s okay to walk away from what doesn’t feel right.
✨ It’s okay to pause a journey and return to it later.
✨ It’s okay to start again.
If you're feeling ashamed for choosing the “wrong” path, teacher, or method, please hear this: you didn’t fail. You were simply learning. Growth often comes wrapped in discomfort. What matters is how we meet ourselves in that discomfort—with honesty, compassion, and a willingness to keep listening to our inner voice.
"The heart of Reiki is not in doing, but in being."
Just for today:
I will not worry.
I will not be angry.
I will be grateful.
I will do my work honestly.
I will be kind to every living thing
To those who feel lost or unsure, know this: the right way will find you when you’re ready. Just as it did for me.
Trust your unfolding.
With love and light,🪷 Inga
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